Wow I'm 18

OK so I turned 18 on Friday, but I don't feel any big change. And it doesn't help that I still look like I'm about 14. which really sucks! I don't feel anymore grownup than I did when I turned sixteen. I decided that since I'm finally eighteen I want to do some grown up type stuff.lol. So I decided to make a list of things I want to do just because I'm 18/before i turn 21. I found alot of these ideas on seventeen.com. Alight here it goes:

1. Go to a strip club-Yes I said it. I want to go to a strip club just because I'm 18 and I'm legally allowed too. This should be fun!
2. Take a road trip-One that doesn't involve my parents either. Just me my friends and the open road.lol. But seriously I ant to take my boyfriend and a couple of friends on a weekend road trip to Canada or something.
3. Sign up for a checking account-I've always wanted one of those:)
4. Learn to play a musical instrument
5. Visit an adult superstore-And maybe pick up a few bedroom items.lol.
6. Go skinny dipping-With my boyfriend of course!
7. Buy a pack of cigarettes-I don't even smoke, I just want to buy a pack because I'm 18 and I can do it.
8. Buy a lottery ticket-Hey, you never know what could happen.
9. Learn to drive a stick shift
10. Forgive someone-Everyone deserves to be forgiven I guess.
11. Have my fortune told-I've always wanted to go to one of those psychic shops and get my pam read and my fortune told. I wouldn't even mind working in one of those shops to be honest, that would be a pretty cool job.
12. Ride a horse
13. Wear a formal dress-I want o feel like a princess.
14. Get a job-Some people think it's weird that I'm 18 and I've never had a job, especially since I have a baby.
15. Leave the country
16. Learn to LOVE me-Self explanitory

If I think of anything else I'll be sure to add it.

No Life

personalI thought that was cute, but really I have no life anymore. Every since I had my little piggy I've been home-bound. The only place I really go now is to hr dad's house, this sucks! It sucks bad. And my boyfriend wants me pregnant again. I think he is really losing his mind, because there is NO way that I'm going through this again. Being pregnant is so irritating. People are always touching you and telling you what ou should and shouldn't be doing, I hate it! I never want to be pregnant again. Well maybe not ever, I'll probably be ready for another one in like 5 years. Yeah 5 years sounds good to me.

He Makes Me Feel Good

That basically sums up my relationship with my baby's daddy. I've learned not to be so critical of him because nobody is perfect(not even me :,( ). He loves me and is willing o give me his all for now, so I'm going to accept that and give him my all in return. Yes he had a daughter before mine and lied about for the last three years,but he eventually came clean. And the the other girls was pregnant before we started dating. He makes me feel good and I love him so I'm staying with my man. Just like Tammy Wynette sang, I'm going to stand by man and show the world that I love him. Some people might not understand, but it doesn't matter because I love him and he loves me. And that's all that counts right?

Fading Away

I have lost 15 pounds since I came home with this baby. If I lose any more weight I'll be invisible. This is ridiculous, I am 90 freaking pounds. I haven't been 90 pounds since I was in the eighth grade. I know this is partly due to me breastfeeding, but I can not deal with this. I look like I'm anorexic or something. It's never never a good thing when people walk up to you and ask if you eat. What kind of question is that? Do I eat, of course I eat.

A New Me

This year has brought about many changes for me, a major one being the birth of my beautiful baby girl. With all the changes going on around me I decided to make a few changes to myself. Well, maybe it's a little more than a few I want to do a whole 360 degree change, from top to bottom starting with my weight and my hair.

My target weight goal is 102-105lbs. And I want my hair to be at least shoulder length(I haven't calculated the inches yet).I was also thinking about getting contacts. Oh and these braces have got to go. I've ben wearing braces for my whole high school career, and they just aren't cutting it for my senior year.

Forgiveness

And with that in mind I think I should let go

Here We Go Again

What is wrong with me? Why do I keep putting myself in a position to have my heart broken. It seems like I'm dependant on his love, but that's not the case at all. Or is it? I keep going back to the same place that I've been trying so hard to get away from. I mean four years is alot to just throw away. And he IS the father of my child. That has to count for something, right? He was my first(not to be mistaken with my only.) and and I really love him. I've tried dating other people, but it just doesn't work. He's all I can think about. He's driving me insane.

Maybe one day I'll brake free from his spell, but for now he is what makes me happy. And I guess thats all that really matters. The good outweighs the bad so for now I'm keeping him.

I'm Too Skinny

This is one you probably don't hear too often but its so true. 92lbs just isn't a good look for me. Forget looking like high fashion models I want to look like a video model. Yes I am a lover of the curves. I'm not saing I want to be fat I just want a nice juicey butt, a little hip, and some thighs. I am so determined to gain weight, but it's just so hard. This sucks.

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