He Makes Me Feel Good

That basically sums up my relationship with my baby's daddy. I've learned not to be so critical of him because nobody is perfect(not even me :,( ). He loves me and is willing o give me his all for now, so I'm going to accept that and give him my all in return. Yes he had a daughter before mine and lied about for the last three years,but he eventually came clean. And the the other girls was pregnant before we started dating. He makes me feel good and I love him so I'm staying with my man. Just like Tammy Wynette sang, I'm going to stand by man and show the world that I love him. Some people might not understand, but it doesn't matter because I love him and he loves me. And that's all that counts right?

Fading Away

I have lost 15 pounds since I came home with this baby. If I lose any more weight I'll be invisible. This is ridiculous, I am 90 freaking pounds. I haven't been 90 pounds since I was in the eighth grade. I know this is partly due to me breastfeeding, but I can not deal with this. I look like I'm anorexic or something. It's never never a good thing when people walk up to you and ask if you eat. What kind of question is that? Do I eat, of course I eat.

A New Me

This year has brought about many changes for me, a major one being the birth of my beautiful baby girl. With all the changes going on around me I decided to make a few changes to myself. Well, maybe it's a little more than a few I want to do a whole 360 degree change, from top to bottom starting with my weight and my hair.

My target weight goal is 102-105lbs. And I want my hair to be at least shoulder length(I haven't calculated the inches yet).I was also thinking about getting contacts. Oh and these braces have got to go. I've ben wearing braces for my whole high school career, and they just aren't cutting it for my senior year.

Forgiveness

And with that in mind I think I should let go

Here We Go Again

What is wrong with me? Why do I keep putting myself in a position to have my heart broken. It seems like I'm dependant on his love, but that's not the case at all. Or is it? I keep going back to the same place that I've been trying so hard to get away from. I mean four years is alot to just throw away. And he IS the father of my child. That has to count for something, right? He was my first(not to be mistaken with my only.) and and I really love him. I've tried dating other people, but it just doesn't work. He's all I can think about. He's driving me insane.

Maybe one day I'll brake free from his spell, but for now he is what makes me happy. And I guess thats all that really matters. The good outweighs the bad so for now I'm keeping him.