Fading Away

I have lost 15 pounds since I came home with this baby. If I lose any more weight I'll be invisible. This is ridiculous, I am 90 freaking pounds. I haven't been 90 pounds since I was in the eighth grade. I know this is partly due to me breastfeeding, but I can not deal with this. I look like I'm anorexic or something. It's never never a good thing when people walk up to you and ask if you eat. What kind of question is that? Do I eat, of course I eat.

A New Me

This year has brought about many changes for me, a major one being the birth of my beautiful baby girl. With all the changes going on around me I decided to make a few changes to myself. Well, maybe it's a little more than a few I want to do a whole 360 degree change, from top to bottom starting with my weight and my hair.

My target weight goal is 102-105lbs. And I want my hair to be at least shoulder length(I haven't calculated the inches yet).I was also thinking about getting contacts. Oh and these braces have got to go. I've ben wearing braces for my whole high school career, and they just aren't cutting it for my senior year.

Forgiveness

And with that in mind I think I should let go

Here We Go Again

What is wrong with me? Why do I keep putting myself in a position to have my heart broken. It seems like I'm dependant on his love, but that's not the case at all. Or is it? I keep going back to the same place that I've been trying so hard to get away from. I mean four years is alot to just throw away. And he IS the father of my child. That has to count for something, right? He was my first(not to be mistaken with my only.) and and I really love him. I've tried dating other people, but it just doesn't work. He's all I can think about. He's driving me insane.

Maybe one day I'll brake free from his spell, but for now he is what makes me happy. And I guess thats all that really matters. The good outweighs the bad so for now I'm keeping him.

I'm Too Skinny

This is one you probably don't hear too often but its so true. 92lbs just isn't a good look for me. Forget looking like high fashion models I want to look like a video model. Yes I am a lover of the curves. I'm not saing I want to be fat I just want a nice juicey butt, a little hip, and some thighs. I am so determined to gain weight, but it's just so hard. This sucks.

Welcome

Hello I am Anony_Mz and you are invited to share in the wonderful world of me. I'll take you along on my journeys through motherhood, fashion, sex, and all the other crazy stuff that pops up in my life.





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Anony_Mz