Real Love

This year I had the best Valentines Day EVER! No I didn't get bombarbed with flowers, candy, and gifts. I would have liked to though, but it didn't even matter. I realized how much I really love my boyfriend and how much our relationship means to me. I really think he is the one that I want to settle down and spend the rest of my life with. I know at 18 I'm kind of too young to be thinking about settling down, but I can't imagine being with anyone else but him. Yes he has his faults, but then again who doesn't. He was my first, although not my only, and I want him to be my last. We've been on and off for almost four years now, we have a beautiful baby-girl (and I also have a lovely step-daughter), and our relationship is in the best place it has ever been.

I am SO in LOVE!!!

He Makes Me Feel Good

That basically sums up my relationship with my baby's daddy. I've learned not to be so critical of him because nobody is perfect(not even me :,( ). He loves me and is willing o give me his all for now, so I'm going to accept that and give him my all in return. Yes he had a daughter before mine and lied about for the last three years,but he eventually came clean. And the the other girls was pregnant before we started dating. He makes me feel good and I love him so I'm staying with my man. Just like Tammy Wynette sang, I'm going to stand by man and show the world that I love him. Some people might not understand, but it doesn't matter because I love him and he loves me. And that's all that counts right?

Forgiveness

And with that in mind I think I should let go

Here We Go Again

What is wrong with me? Why do I keep putting myself in a position to have my heart broken. It seems like I'm dependant on his love, but that's not the case at all. Or is it? I keep going back to the same place that I've been trying so hard to get away from. I mean four years is alot to just throw away. And he IS the father of my child. That has to count for something, right? He was my first(not to be mistaken with my only.) and and I really love him. I've tried dating other people, but it just doesn't work. He's all I can think about. He's driving me insane.

Maybe one day I'll brake free from his spell, but for now he is what makes me happy. And I guess thats all that really matters. The good outweighs the bad so for now I'm keeping him.